Timing Really Is Everything

On October 6, 2011 I wrote a draft titled "Nightly Love Affair." For some reason I never finished or published the draft. I found it today as I was shuffling through my blogs and reflecting on the past (almost) twenty-nine years of life and love that has been my existence on this earth. Here it is:

"In a recent blog I wrote about manifesting true love and finally feeling the love in my heart that I’ve always dreamed about. Since then I have consciously thought about the love of my life and, at times, I’ve even felt “him.”My heart is open and ready for the man I have always dreamed about. It is so empowering to know that I am finally in total control of my heart, and that it is healed and ready to love again.
Each night, I dedicate my time before bed to “him” before I say my prayers and drift off to sleep. This past Tuesday was no exception. I spent some alone time mediating and manifesting this true love that I so desperately seek. Like I usually do, I listened to the love song station on Pandora, lit some candles, and turned down the lights. I shut my eyes and just listened to the music, imaging the words being sung by my dream man. And once again, I felt “him,” and my heart started to race. Before I knew it, a huge smile had crept onto my face.
I am not sure when I will find “him,” but I am sure that he’s out there! He’s near, and I can feel him!!! I will continue to seek him as he searches for me. It may be tomorrow; it may be a year from now… Who knows?! It could even be five years down the road. No matter how long it takes, I am so excited. Every day I wake up as excited as the last thinking maybe, just maybe, he will appear in front of me today. If he does, WOOOOHOOO!! If he doesn’t, then tomorrow I will wake up just as excited and eager as I did yesterday about this magical love that awaits me."

Oh how I remember those cold Denver, CO nights in late 2011 alone in my one-bedroom apartment. I would religiously think "him" into life. I would light candles, relax, listen to love songs, close my eyes, and spend minutes upon minutes in meditation and manifestation. I would literally feel love for a person that I had never met before. I had no idea who he was, when he would come to me, or how we would meet. I did, however, know in my heart that he was out there somewhere preparing himself for me as I was preparing myself for him. How exciting!!!


Now sixteen months later, after hundreds of days of preparation, a few lost love relationships, several obstacles, and thousands of lessons learned, I know that I have found him. The man that I have dreamt about. The man that was waiting at the end of the tunnel for me. The man that will love me like no man ever has or like no other ever will. The man that looks at me and knows that he is worthy of me while feeling lucky every second we spend together. The man who treats me like my father treats my mother. The man that God has designed for me and for only me.

It just so happened that I met him exactly when I needed to meet him. God knew that on that October night I was not ready. He knew that even a year later I wouldn't be quite ready. He had so much more to teach me, and I had a lot more growing up to do before I would be the woman ready to receive such love. Timing really is everything, and this love was definitely worth that wait.